Random update

 This is gonna be really short but I don't want to disappear for too long LOL I promised I'd stay consistent and I will, so here we are. Do I have anything interesting to talk about? No, not yet at least. Same old stuff. I've been working as usual and STUDYING, but thankfully not for long. My exams start on the 15th and end on the 22nd. Whew, I can't wait to be free and pick up my hobbies again. I'll go to a con this month and it's been years since I've last cosplayed something, but I wanna give it a try again. I hope to find the time to start crafting what I need ASAP instead of ending up the day before in a rush LOL. I'm currently drowning in deadlines but at least I got some free time today. ^_^ I love May, it's my favorite month and it's that time of the year where I actually start to feel better (I hate winter and if I don't see the sun for too long I die like a houseplant) and think about summer. I'm not a fan of going to the beach, but it's kinda fun sometimes. I hope to update with some cool stuff soon, and hopefully show you some even cooler things I'm doing eheh. I don't have any pics to upload because I only went out a couple of times in the past two weeks and didn't take any cool pictures ç_ç but yeah. When I'm free I want to make a post to talk about a book about Lolita fashion that I've recently bought. It should arrive tomorrow morning and I can't wait! Wearing Lolita again was one of my goals for the year but I've had so much on my mind that I didn't even bother searching for clothes. sigh. Let's not forget that I sold my whole wardrobe last year. I don't know which kind of demon possessed me during that week but it happened. And that's pretty much it, time to get back to work now! What about you, ehat are you guys up to lately?

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Unfinished

Hi, I'm back. No long introductions today. Reita, from The Gazette passed away on April 15th and I still have no words. When I was younger I would've never thought it would actually happen so soon to one of my favorites. I started listening to them wehn I was a kid, basically. I'm not sure I can get over it. I just have so many memories tied to this band, it will never be the same again... I really wanted to write something about it. Rest in peace. 

I really wanted to update the blog anyways, even though I've been painfully busy lately and so many things have my attention that I really don't kow what to think about first. This being one of the things, too... I've been gettiing less sleep than usual sigh. Besides my exams coming in next month and all of the hardcore studying sessions that are bothering me, I was also busy with work. What a drag. I'm not drawing as much as I would like to and the only things I drew are a couple of commission... one  has already been completed, but I still have to finish the other one and start drawing my next tattoo, too. LOL. Thankfully by the end of this week I'll finally get rid of some stuff and be a bit more free. So many things to do ahhh!! I gotta start preparing a drawing for another contest while I wait for the results of one I'm already participating in, get some new supplies, DIY some stuff for a project, refresh my room's setup and of course study. I'm getting sick of it LOL it's getting sooo boring. Plus, next month is one of my faves and I REALLY want to enjoy it, but I've got art classes  at the start of it everydayfor 10 days, 7PM to 10PM. ç_ç Whew. I'm really considering the idea of cutting down most of the things I've been studying non-stop and get at least one whole day to do the minor tasks before getting rid of everything else. I like being busy, it's fun, but some stuff is just. Ugh. I'll manage.

But still, in the past weekend I've been able to have a couple of days to myself and spend some time with friends. I really needed it and I hope to do it again soon. :( here are some pics, as usual.

I went to the park with a friend and it was super nice. I love sunny afternoons like these because they're super relaxing. 

And of course we had to go to my favorite spot to chill. I'm so glad I got to shut my mind for a while LOL plus the air was so nice and calming... I'd move my whole desk here if I could. The scenery really makes me think of an Hozier song. I love him so much LOL.

Being able to spend some time outside like this is one of the biggest blessings, really. We really gotta reminds ourselves to slow down sometimes. After this we ran a couple of errands and I bought two new perfumes that I LOVE. I love sweet/fruity scents so they were an absolute bargain for 5 euros.We had dinner in a place I've never been before and it was super nice. I ate too much as usual but it was so worth it. The day after I met up with another friend and I went at their house to hang out for a while and we had so MUCH fun. I can't recal the last time I laughed like that. We did so much silly stuff and read lots of old. crappy fanfictions on Wattpad and even wrote one ourselves. I could've died writing that shit, really.

 

Then we took a break from our writing and went to grab some pizza for dinner. It was so relaxing, honestly. And needed. I love my friends company so much, I always feel like a little ball of glowing sunlight when I leave them and even if I've been home for hours already I can't stop thinking about it because I get the zoomies LOL. Friends are so important. (I love you guys <3).

And this is pretty much it. I'm actually writing this in the middle of the night, but you'll read it in the morning. I'm soo tired, today was draining. I just gotta hold on for another couple of days sigh. I can't wait to start drawing for me again, at least do another piece to hang up in my room. I know, still nothing interesting but I wanted to update anyways instead of letting this task pile up with the other ones as well LOL. I promised myself I'd be consistent and I will. What about you? What are you guys up to lately? I hope you're able to enjoy some free time and nice weather. I'll see you in the next post!

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April

Hello hello. My exams are getting closer! AAAA!! JK I'm studying hard, they'll be easy (LOL) but still. Not a fan of sitting 4 hours in a classroom every afternoon for a whole week with ridicously high temperatures. -.-

Moving on. It's april!!  ପ(๑•ᴗ•๑)ଓ ♡ And yesterday it was my bestfriend's birthday. Love u!! @ari <3 Ahh I love spring. Best season, after fall, of course. I really feel like I'm having the time of my life lately. My new desk finally came today and I love it already! Here it is.

Looks much better already, no? It's still a bit empty, but little by little...

the little drawers that came with it

I love my desktop too much. It's quite literally one of my fav places to be. I spend most of my time here and I never get tired of it. It's hard to sleep at night sometimes because I just have so many ideas and things that I want to do!! I can never ever get bored sigh. Here's a full picture of the wall behind.

Besides the silly stuff, there are some drawings that my friends made and that I love very much. I put them up here so that I can see them everyday. <3 It's only been three years since I moved into this room and it's still a bit of a work in progress, but I love how it's looking so far. It really is the space I dreamed about, and it allows me to create the things that I love. 

I should get a new library, but I've had this ever since I was a child... I'll probably just paint it a new color and keep it. It took me 4 years to get all that stuff, and most of was gifted to me by my friends actually. Maybe I'll upload a better picture in the next post.  Anyways, these days have been pretty calm, actually. The weather is so good. I just love to stay in the sun as much as I can, even if I'm at home. My favorite afternoon activity after studying is eating fruit on the balcony LOL. Wearing sunscreen, of course. I'll never get caught not wearing it, even in winter! I use 50+ SPF all year long.

Yesterday I went out to run some errands with my sister and she bought me this,I'm sooo in love! They both smell super sweet and fruity, like cherry flavored candies! And the perfume actually lasts quite a lot which is surprising. 

And another gift that a friend made, these super cute NANA themed stickers! T_T I've already put them EVERYWHERE. I never hold back when it comes to stickers, really. I'll put them wherever.

Last week was pretty busy. I had to work sigh and it was very stressful. In my 2 years working as a waistress I don't think I've ever served 60 people all at once! It was challenging but kind of rewarding, ti be honest. I really underestimate myself too much, sometimes. But besides working, I managed to go out almost everyday and it's been quite fun. ^_^ Last sunday I went to the park with my friends and I had so much fun. The weather was nice and I love being surrounded by nature as much as I can, so it's quite refreshing to take a break from everything and enjoy myself eheh. Plus my friends are amazing and it's always a breath of fresh air to be around them. When I leave, I can't help but feel at peace with everything. 

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silly stuff

I was home alone for most of the time during the past week so I had to keep the house tidy u.u it's my job to cook everyday and I enjoy it very much, but when I'm by myself I don't really put that much care in it LOL and I don't usually make any fancy recipes because I don't want to eat them all by myself!! When I went grocery shopping I stopped by the toy store and look at what I saw! So cuuute, I want all of them. T_T

And that's pretty much it. :3 I want to upload some of my drawings here as well, and get a digital camera to take pictures. It's more fun that way. :P If this week could be a song it would definitely be Good Days by SZA, one of my favorites.❤︎  I'm super grateful to be surrounded by all these lovely people. Hopefully I'll update this blog again with some interesting things. ^_^ What about you guys? What are your favorite songs?

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Last week of march 2024

Ahh, march is coming to an end. One of my favorite months ^_^ my exams are getting closer.. *sigh* I can't wait for them to be done already -__-'' I've been doing nothing but studying these days, how boring. But anyways. I dyed my hair black again. After two years and 230€ gone to get it bleached (LOL) I went back to black again. Not my fault, black box dye always looks so tempting.. and it makes your hair soo shiny T_T I loved my light hair but it had to go, plus I had to cut off all of the bleach damage, it wasn't worth it. I can't even recall all of the hair colors I had in these past months. I went from pastel pink, to a strange peachy color that I can't describe because it faded weird, then red, ginger and then to dangerously-bright-almost-blinding hot pink. Whew. Anyways. here's what my hair looks like now (+ first face reveal? LOL). I LOVE IT T^T hopefully I won't change my mind anytime soon because I refuse to go through the hassle of getting it bleached again.

beware: comically large glasses

Anyways. This has been my view for the whole month basically. My desk is a MESS. Thankfully I managed to get a new one and I can't wait for it to come. It will look much better, plus it's one of those drawing desks that you can regulate so that you don't have to sit like a little shrimp in order to draw. :P

Back pain after spending hours drawing/studying is real. And I'll actually be able to decorate it nicely and take better videos while I draw.. I really want to start uploading them. It's super fun and I found out that taking them actually helps me focus more LOL.

questionable desk setup

Besides studying I've mostly been reading One Piece and started a Bleach rewatch after many years. It was one of the animes that first introduced me to mangas and drawing in genereal. I was only 7 years old when I first discovered it, so I never actually watched it properly at the time and it's time to catch up. But back to what was supposed to be the orginal topic of this post: last week of march. A little recap of what I did lately:

Bought another one. Yeah. I love theseee, they're so cute!!! I'm obsessed. Like really. I want to buy EVERYTHING. I love those little accessories and sets T_T I don't even know what to do with them but I WANT!!! Ugh. If you have a Sylvanian Families collection, lock your doors. I'm about to beccome a  hoarder, it's a serious concern. In the background you can take a peek of the amazing birthday gift my friend Giuls made me. Look!!

Ahh!!! I'm still freaking out over this. Sanji's recipe book and all those Fairy Tail volumes as well... T_T my heart can't take it. Fairy Tail is one of my fav seies EVER. And I love cooking (and Sanji)., What else do I have to say? This is like one of the best things ever. My friends never miss when it comes to gifts sigh sigh. Further proof of this are these Keroppi nails stickers that my friend Ester bought for me. I put them on yesterday, how cool are they?!!

I really have the most amazing friends ever guys. I'll never be able to thank them enough. ^^ And I can't wait to see them again! Hopefully next month I won't be as busy... besides running errands and of course, studying, I didn't really do anything exciting, buy my goal for next month is to spend as much time as possible with my friends and have fun. And be outside more if the weather is nice. I love spending time outside when it's sunny, if I can. This is one of my favorite spots. 

And that's pretty much it. Can't wait to do many interesting things and hopefully start taking more pics to upload on here. What have you guys been up to lately? ^^ 

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15 aprile 2023

 

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Random dump and brief life update

Hello hello amazing people. It appears that I am, in fact, alive. Am I wearing Lolita? No. Will I talk about Lolita? No. So why are you making this post? Fair question. It's time to revamp this blog and turn it into some sorta of journal/dump/archive or whatever. It's more fun this way, since I'm not wearing Lolita fashion. Not because I don't like it anymore, I guess I'm just focusing on other things at the moment. And I see no point in wearing it around my house while I study *sigh*. I need to pass all of my exams this year, serious stuff. Sort of. Anyways. I'm up to NOTHING besides studying (and scheming evil plans to take over Baby, The Stars Shine Bright to steal all the Kumakumyas) and drawing. Oh, and cooking. I feel like him, no questions asked. 

true face reveal

Maybe I should turn this into a cooking blog and post all of my recipes because I'm having too much fun for my own good LOL. Honestly, I just wanted an excuse to type dramatically on my laptop and post some cool pictures so here we go. 

Hang out at my best friend's house. Best. Day. Ever. We made super cool tin shrines and watched Kamikaze Girls together, it was so much fun!! Of course this was mine LOL.

I really think we should all pretend to be living in an Ai Yazawa story and have fun *sigh*. And bring back digicam pictures and blogs and flip phones. Instagram is no fun. I mean, most social medias aren't but you get what I mean. The past year has been eye-opening to me in every possible way and I'm so grateful for that. Getting older just allowed me to live the life I truly wanted! ^_^ Lolita fashion not being part of this life kind of stings, but I'll get back to it, eventually... I just wish there were fellow Lolitas in my area! It would be so so fun. I've always wanted to go to a tea party, or have a meet... I just want to wear matching outfits with someone, get boba and read silly mangas together T_T thankfully, I managed to find THE best friend group I could ever ask for, but my mission to make friends withing the Lolita community is not over yet. EHEHEHEHE. Anyways. Does anyone else feel nostalgic over old web forums, blogs etc..? I do. I browse them EVERYDAY. I was able to live that era myself, but still. I miss it. It was so much fun and this blog allows me to live it again in a way ^_^ I just feel like I want to post more on here. Casual stuff life this, nohing serious LOL it's fun! Little by little I'll post some more cool pictures... and some of my drawings as well :3

 I'll see you in my next post with some dumb stuff! 

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Did I actually quit Lolita? Random talk + dream dresses list

Spoiler: I might have. For a little while LOL. 

Happy late new year and happy birthday to this blog, January 11th marking 1 year since the start of this journey. Thanks to everyone who ttok the time to read my silly posts and has helped and supported me along the way, may the Lolita gods bless you. 

Ah yes, my usual comeback after going missing from this blog. Apologies, but sometimes life does get in the way. I promised I'd start posting again, and I almost did, but my attention has been caught by several annoyances in the past months. As some of you know, my relationship with Lolita fashion in the past year has been rough to say the least. I stopped wearing it in public (in my hometown only LOL I'm sure most can get what I'm saying) two years ago now, and not beeing able to express myself how I wanted hurt me, but that's not the point. I began despising the way I looked in it and thought it was time to say bye, despite my love for the fashion still going strong after 10 years of me lingering in this community like a victorian ghost haunting a mansion. I was smart enough to keep at least some basic pieces, thankfully. But I actually regret it, so yeah. Don't impulsively sell the wardrobe you worked your ass off for. Plus, after all of this and other nerve wracking events that occured one after the other without mercy, I didn't really have any energy left for fashion. But I actually feel hopeful towards this year so it's time I invest more time in myself again!

So what are my Lolita (and non-Lolita) goals for this year? The first one would probably be to try out as many styles as I can to see in which one I see myself better. Sweet Lolita doesn't really seem like an option anymore but let's see if I manage to style it in a way that flatters me. Old School Sweet can be a ''solution'' but I have to be careful while coording colors because I dyed my hair neon pink (LOL) and hate wigs, so my outfits looking messy is OUT. (A stupid concern considering that I've changed hair color about a million times already but I'd rather be safe). I'm leaning more towards Old School in general and I'd love to be able to properly explore this style, and I really wanna get into handmade more if I get the chance, understanding patterns and FINALLY learn how to use a sewing machine properly without someone's help! Also silly ones, but buying directly from favorite brand would be a dream come true, then I guess I'd be happy to learn how to take my own pics and stop being a faceless entity LOL. And since I'm getting brave let's see if I can FINALLY get one of these. </3 *cries* Oh and visit Angelic Pretty Paris and participate in a meet up. Who's coming with me?

behold, the mighty Kumakumya.

As for my non-Lolita goals, mmh. Probably getting more tattoos and piercings LOL, hang out with my friends as much as I can and make good memories, keep journaling, draw as much as I can, imrpove my cooking skills and RELAX. Like, turn off my brain for at least 1 one minute everyday and find more trinkets to add to my collection! There are a lot more of course, but let's see what happens. Oh and self care, real self care. The one where you actually work on yourself and not just do your skincare, but I'm willing to accept both.

Now, moving back onto the good stuff. Here's a list fo my dream dresses, putting it here hoping it can actually inspire me to move towards my Lolita goals for this year and find that spark again!

Ready?

Memorial Cake OP by Angelic Pretty

Ohh this dress would SAVE me under any circumstances I swear. I've had my eye on this for TEN.YEARS. TEN YEARS! AND STILL NO DRESS. It's tragic, really. I've found several listings for this dress over time but most were too expensive for me at the time. I found it again on Vinted two years ago paired with it's bonnet for a fair price, but when I asked the seller if they could keep it on hold for a couple of days they said no and it got snatched. Thanks. We'll meet again though, I'm not letting it slide this time. Onto the next one.

Cosmic OP by Angelic Pretty

If you know me you probably have seen this dress at LEAST 10 times. And I'm sorry, ok? Now I'd say this dress is an unskippable part of my lore. I had found two listings on Closet Child but was too scared of placing an order because I had never used shopping services before and of course I had to say bye to this one too since it got snatched, but I'll come back. That'a a threath, not a promise. Anyways.

Strawberry Loves Chocolate by Baby The Stars Shine Bright

I love all chocolate prints, but strawberries too? I'm not getting out of this alive. It would probably take me a while to figure out the best way to coord this piece but having it would be more than enough to start. If I manage to find it on western secondhand markets it's over for everyone. Sigh.

Heart Apron by Baby The Stars Shine Bright

Do I really have to say anything at all? This is like the Old School Sweet dream. And iconic in every way to say the least. If you're not pairing it with rocking horse shoes what are you even doing? This image below says everything I need to say. Just look.

That's self-explanatory. It's a piece I'm not going to miss again and one that I hope to buy directly from the brand as soon as I can. I'll keep this picture as my lucky charm for the year LOL.

Gobelin Print Shirring Tiered JSK by Metamorphose Temps de Fille

Yeah. Just look at her majesty. I've never been a huge fan of gobelin prints but for this one I'd steal. If you own this dress you better sleep with one eye open. It's so effortlessly beauitiful. 

Babydoll JSK by Baby The Stars Shine Bright

And finishing this whole post with easily one of the most iconic dresses and my favorite one along with Memorial Cake. And yes I'm obsessed with Baby The Stars Shine Bright, I just love everything they do sigh. I'm gonna have to hold back for my own sake.

As always, thank you for keeping up with my silly shenaningans. Hopefully I'll actually start posting again and get back the strenght to be a lifestyle Lolita again. Life is so dull without it, I feel like a piece of me has been missing. I'll really do my best. You can keep up with me on my other socials, where I'll probably be more active (I mostly post art and nothing else but who knows. I like to use this blog for fun stuff anyways). See you in the next one.

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